Sunday, November 23, 2008

“Heart in My Hand” - to be recorded tomorrow...

“The entire world I would hate,
If that’s the price of your love I have to pay…”
(Mikhail Lermontov)

The emptiness appeared so vast,
As vast as November skies,
As heavy as thunderous clouds
That filled my Soul and poisoned my heart…

I wanted to cry to rid my heart of sadness,
I’ve tried but tears wouldn’t come…
No words, no news only madness –
Gloom has rooted deeply in my heart…

I wish I could hold my heart in my hand,
To comfort, to sooth with warm tears,
To whisper, “Don’t hurt, please be brave…
You aren’t alone… Do not fear…”

My heart is now beating slower,
Still choking on my tears, then replied,
“If you care for me just a little,
Please don’t ever fall in love….”
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Never again I would betray my heart,
If I’m to find love, my heart will play no part…
November 23, 2008

8 comments:

R.E.II (The Missing Chapters) said...

Have you published any work? This is wonderful and Mikhail Lermontov's too. Have you?

Natalie said...

Thank you.
At some point in life I wanted it to be published and it was rejected, in many places. I had some single poems published, in Russian, in another life…

R.E.II (The Missing Chapters) said...

Thank you for adding light with the reference to the cat.
Everytime I think of Bulgakovs cat, I busrt out in laughter. Such a funny. How sad it turned out to be unreal at the end. My dear magician, if I get your entry right it might really light up the story.

Robert Wind said...

amazing progression...the idea of loving without the hearts influence...talk about intensity.

The Y River said...

So Beautiful

Wild Man said...

Dear Natalie,

I am sure you are also a free spirit. When I read your blog I had that impression. You have not disappointed me at all. I have grown up inside an organized religious group and it has given me a lot of problems. The website focolare.net tries to warn people not to go into such a group easily and without thinking. If you like, we can talk more about this by e-mail. I am new to weblogging and I don't know very well how to work with this way of communication.
Greetings from Free Spirit

MEGZ said...

really touching, n so true...reaches right to the core..

Natalie said...

Thank you, sweet Meghna...